Didactic Synapse

I am filled with a profound frustration and sadness today. Grades are due tomorrow at 7:00 AM and I have had very little time to finish the work I must do before posting grades. Events beyond my control keep piling on top of me, one upon the other, and frustrations in the classroom are crushing my soul like rocks on Giles Corey’s spine.

I have so many obligations and people who want me to do things, and I feel so very exhausted by all of everything. I’m not sleeping well and I feel like I’m incapable of doing everything I need to do. I did a tiny workout yesterday, which is good, but I feel like everything is so overwhelming and my capacity to handle it is shaky.

I kinda feel like crying, but in the words of Boots from The Coup, “you feel like you might never stop”. Besides, I have to keep it together in the classroom. My colleagues are supportive in their way, but I never feel like I’m able to connect to other teachers these days. I think maybe Stensrud was the last teacher I could really speak with about the job in a way that was beyond the surface.

Thank heaven for Diane, of course.. I can’t imagine how difficult this week would be if not for her infinite support and compassion. Still, I’ve been going through a terrible few days and I don’t think it’s going to let up until at least Thursday evening. Maybe not even then.

this too shall pass this too shall pass this too shall pass this too shall pass CMON THIS .. hurry up and TOO PASS

Hey look I made a new thing.